Freedom

Freedom does not exist.. No thoughts are original.. Whatever crap I am writing is not original.. I think its original.. But this is far from the truth.. My thoughts are not mine.. Infact nothing is in my control.. I am powerless.. Whatever happens, happens for a reason.. I am just a cluster of thoughts which existed before me or are existing as of now.. I am just a response to the happenings around me.. I am an outcome of environment.. My likes and dislikes have been trained.. My feelings are trained.. My instincts - .. Is it trained.. But whatever "instincts" mean, they are not in my control.. Whats right whats wrong if nothing is in my control.. Why am I held responsible for my acts when my acts are not mine in the first place.. I live because I am not dead.. I can not die because "instincts" dont allow me.. Here we go again.. I need to understand "instincts".. By the way this is a need which is not mine... I am forced to understand "instincts".. Though I am pretty sure, "instincts" are also not free!